Goodnight.

Goodnight Sweetheart, goodnight.

"Post My Secret"

For every time you wanted to get up & leave, I wish I wasn’t always the one to stop you from coming back.

Ps. Lost without you.

Merry Christmas

... to everyone, my family, and my brand new 26 inch flat screen HD TV from non other but my daddy. (:

I spent my Eve eating some good food, laughing with the family, opening and giving presents, and having a hooka sesh in the garage con mi primos. Today is part 2. I love the holidays. <3

Inspired.

As I sit in my room, crying in sync of my typing fingers, my only thought is you. As I sit with my heart sinking to my stomach, all I can do is wait. I cry for the selfishness I have brought to you. For the separation of time that has left us apart. For all this time, my tears and cries have blamed you. blamed you into thinking you weren't meant to be. but my repetitive words are nothing more than replies of i knows and you told me's. and the thought of true understanding seems to slip away. and yet, i hold on so strong. i cry for strength and the hope to hold us strong. but change is claiming its victory. and the old me slowly disinigrates from your memory. leaving less happiness. but i never give up. and i will continue to fight. there's just something about you that's letting me know your my right.






I just spent 2 of my hours of my chemistry time to an unseen movie required to watch for my rws class. i have never felt so inspired: Freedom Writers. welcome to my inspiration.

Repost

Trina and Isabelle inspired me to make one.

Here's a throwback:


for the future holds my fear.
& i can't let go of the past.

i dwell on the simple things.
the little things.
the things that mean most.
for they never leave my memory.
my memory of both good and bad.

reassurance has disappeared.
trust is no longer strong.
together, they go hand in hand.
with my hands too full of what i don't need.

& so i sit in silence.
in hopes to organize my thoughts.
in hopes my hands don't get too weak.
too weak to crash.
too weak to breakdown.

so i'll hold on strong.
never showing you the truth.
the truth behind the smiles.
the truth behind the laughs.
the truth behind everything you thought you knew.

because you no longer know the truth.
for you let it pass you by.
as well as the rest.
the rest of the little things.
the little things that mean the most.

so i say farewell to my conclusion of thoughts.
farewell to the happy.
farewell to the sad.
for i'll be back from this stage of confusion.
i'll be back when i find what i have lost.